“This life, which is such a fine thing, is not the life we are acquainted with, but that of which we know nothing; it is not the past life, but the future. With the New Year, Fate will commence treating you, and me, and everyone well, and the happy life will begin. Am I not right?”
Giacomo Leopardi
Every New Year arrives with the same question, cloaked in a new sparkle: what are you going to become now? Resolutions line up like polite demands. Improve this. Fix that. They promise transformation, clarity, progress — but they are rarely neutral wishes. They assume that life, like an object, should be optimized; that the time ahead of us must already know what it is for. A resolution is never just a desire; it is a promise of function.
Leopardi, writing with the kind of melancholy that never fully trusted happy endings, suggested something else — something more seductive: suspension. The good life, he proposed, isn’t the one we already know, or the one we’ve already lived, but the one that remains just out of reach — unknown, unfinished, and therefore still possible. So what if the most radical New Year’s wish is not to resolve anything at all? What if it is to remain unfinished?
In 2020, many of my plans fell through because of the pandemic, and I returned to being a student. I went to study illustration at Falmouth University. Instead of feeling delayed, I felt protected. I found myself in a space where not knowing wasn’t a problem to solve, but the point. During that time, I worked on a project called Mute Little Goose.
It began with artefacts and with making something that didn’t immediately explain itself. André Leroi-Gourhan once wrote that “the human hand is human because of what it makes, not what it is.” I took this to mean that we don’t always discover who we are by thinking harder; sometimes we have to make something and see ourselves reflected back in it.
I wasn’t interested in the hand as a servant to the brain, obediently executing instructions. I was curious to see what happens when the brain follows instead of leads — when thinking leaks into objects, and meaning shows up late. The longer I worked on the project, the more I noticed how obsessed we are with utility. We want things — and people — to declare their purpose immediately.